ilLoumination

I have so much dancing around in my head its hard to balance all this shit

It sucks when you are only trying to do better, you made major headway you feel the rush of excitement, course through your body, You feel closer to your goal then you ever been, but then when the moment is ripe, your plucked from the sky, you flew too high and forgot the reason your flying in the first place

Nightmare

I lost her….my words werent enough….love lost its trust…the stress was too much……potential lust too much to crush…we didnt make it….my dream it faded, to black….altar began to crack…I ran as fast as I could splintered wood under toe, personality my biggest foe….how can I escape me safely…..chasing, but I cant catch you….Terror in my eyes….fire in your mind destruction of your heart….misconception lead to stressing…..My mind Im wrestling….you walked out the door….ignorance a bliss no more….I hit the floor….screamed in pain as doom surround me….I hated everything even the room around me…..floorboards running out….panic flushing throughout…her love faded to black….I ran out of room, no more slack….I fell to my death………maybe its for the best……stress no longer…..insecurity free….no longer share worry for me….dead and free….I had a dream that we were in a church at the altar and the floor began to crack she ran, I ran after her I felt a feeling as if I stayed where I was we would be fine but she felt she had to run that running was the only way to escape the floor falling, Idk why I didnt want to move from where I was, I chased her I wanted her to trust my judgement she wouldnt, she had no trust in my judgement she ran I could not catch her, she ran out the door to safety, I fell to the ground in fury and just stared out the door as the floor collapsed all around me, frozen I couldnt move, the floor fell from beneath my feet and then I woke up……scariest shit smh